Late night rambling!

I DREAD night.

Normal moms cannot wait to sleep.  

But ugh, for months now I have nightmares all night

I dream that Wesley cheats on me and leaves me, that Olyver is being taken away, and that people are trying to kill me.

I go to sleep terrified because I know I'm going to wake up panicking 30 minutes later.

I wake up every 15-30 minutes all night long.

Every time I do I look at the time HOPING that its time to wake up.

Sleeping has become something I dread.

I'm sooo exhausted though.

It can't be very good to be waking up so much and I'm sure even worse that the sleep I do get I am panicking the entire time!

I just want a normal 8 hours of sleep!

Anyways, enough of my problems.

Olyver is changing like crazy. His voice has changed.

He wants to play all day long, and I love it.

He gets longer every day haha.

He's constantly excited. He throws his arms and I LOOOOVE it.

I wake up to him talking.. And bring him in bed with me..

We lay together for an hour and just talk. He smiles so big at me the whole time.

And the whole time I stare at him wondering how I got so freakin lucky!

I can't believe how precious he is!

I love my Olyver so much.